Just got back from a get together of BH girls, and I should start studying, but I wanted to update first.

Seeing them all made me so incredibly happy, but I was chatting to them, and the people that stayed home had nothing to talk about. Nothing was interesting. It was boring business as boringly is usual. And everyone who went away looked so awesome! Gorgeous, even. I felt so out of place - frumpy and boring, that's me, plain Jane. I'm wondering if there is something I'm missing out on by not going away. I was so determined for a good long while to go away, and experience something new. And I didn't. Was that wrong? Here I am, sitting in cold ol' Winnipeg, wasting my time with a weblog and MSN. Not doing anything with my life. No, I guess I do know that I have direction, but I'm not feeling very fulfilled with my life.

So, I need a conclusion, right? Well, it's too late now to apply to another university, but next year (school year Fall 2005) I'm going to try to get out of here, and explore somewhere new. My parents are thinking of leaving Winnipeg then anyway, so who knows, it might just be time for me to leave as well. This could just be temporary down-ness, but I'd like to explore this option. See what comes of it. And if I decide to do it, I can work really hard next year, save money, get great grades, and then apply for scholarships galore. Sort of like a new start...... *sigh* what happens happens, I guess.

later days,

js